You Waltz My Love

FUNNY PPLZ

2020-02-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

Artist: Nicole

I like your hair better when it's soft; I love you more when we sit on the sofa and laugh at ourselves.

2009-02-26T01:19:00.003+08:00

Okay, I can't live a day without turning on the com, going online (thanks to certain people HAHA), and just pretending to be MIA. :/

I'm going to change blog link soon.

& I'm starting to feel a lot like a girl. Wonder why?

Words keep fallin' out of my pocket

2009-02-23T22:58:00.001+08:00

M.I.A

:)

SMS me (which I may not reply), or see if you can actually connect your brainwaves to mine. HAHAHA.

Will be back soon.

Cause we were both young when I first saw you

2009-02-23T20:26:00.003+08:00

Today didn't turn out as what I had expected in mind, in the good way.

My mum's constant yelling went through several dimensions, time and space (haha) and finally got into my dream. Woke up before 8am. Slept at 5am? Ate my breakfast and headed down to Toa Payoh to help my mum help my uncle at his shop. Let's see what I did.

1. Read Teens, Teenage, Seventeen, Women's Weekly and that's about it I think.
2. Drank Pink Dolphin.
3. Ate a packet of Chipsters and brought 3 packets home. :o
4. Acted as a free voluntary model.
5. Crave fried hokkien prawn noodles. D:

The coffee shop's business there is so good that they can afford to have a rest day every Monday. And it's like all the stalls in the coffee shop. More like strike than a break if you ask me. Besides, hey who doesn't like earning more during these burdened times?

I want to eat hokkien mee! At least I had pizzahut today. :) BUT THEY DIDN'T PASTE THE HOT DOT THAT I WAS EXPECTING. :S (Could've gotten 2 free pizzas, but they'll prolly make up an excuse for it.)

After that we went Bugis. Ate KFC for lunch. Went to shop. My mum gave me a fashion reform. LOL. That I'm not elaborating on.

Anyway, I can't remember on which magazine did I chance upon this article on moles on our body indicating several aspects of our life. I remember mine.

Mole on the eyebrow: Help will always come to me no matter what happens.
Mole on the left side of face: Studious and hardworking (this one not very true eh HAHA)
Mole on the palm: Extremely talented! Because moles don't usually grow there.
Mole on the finger: Unreliable. :(
Mole on the elbow: It was something good. I can't remember. LOL. :/ Something regarding talent. Cos I remember I had 2 very talented and hard-to-get mole spots. :) *It's on the same arm even. I think I have a super hurculean arm.*
Mole on the ear: Lucky, wealthy, fortunate. :) *Chinese believe it signifies that the child with the mole on the ear is filial to his/her parents*

So, I'm actually talented. HEH.

I don't believe in coincidence that much.
I've stopped believeing.

Just looking at your picture I hear my heart beat, I contemplate just how it'd feel to look you in the eyes.

2009-02-22T13:51:00.004+08:00

My work today was cancelled. x.x

I may not survive this economic crisis afterall. LOL.

And tonight we're having pizzahut delivery for dinner. I just hope it happens. (Not like yesterday my mum got angry that I haven't order anything when she got home.) =x

Love is proved not by the time spent together, but by the time spent apart.

2009-02-21T23:58:00.003+08:00

Days are getting more boring. Really. Only me, though.

Anyway, today I tried to act smart by using my student ezlink card, which had a negative sum in it, to take a bus. What happens is, the bus driver already knew that even though it's a student ezlink card, I had to pay $1. (There's this screen in the driver seat... you know? It told him.) I was stupefied. Smart plan fail. LOL. *Sigh* So I wasted $2 to go for my violin lesson today. Shucks. Talk about the reduction in bus fare... They should seriously reduce the stupid extra cost of cash payers.

And 1cent reduction for student fare, 2 cent reduction for adult fare? SERIOUSLY? It's only a show. Show to tell you, "Oh hey we're reducing the bus fare please use public transport more often thx. *stupid greedy grin*" No kidding. Years back, at one time they increased the bus fare up by 10cents. And when it comes to reduction, 2cents? Make me laugh. (Remember the 60c bus fare? Yea, that's what I'm comparing it to the future 69c. Is it a reduction? No. Ok yes, slight. Like an ant. Maybe an ant would live through it.) /sarcasm

/pissed
/whatever
/working tomorrow so that I may live through this economic crisis.

I just don't love you no more

A person is made, not borned.

2009-02-19T22:10:00.002+08:00

I wish I was a vampire.

'Cause then I could suck your blood and make you mine.

I've set goals I could never reach; I've set targets I never want to hit. (But still I will, 'cause words like these mean nothing.)

2009-02-18T01:21:00.007+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Up-iculdfwA&feature=related

(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh
eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

-

Enough of words. Today I'll do it. Tonight I'll stop.

I'll hit the brakes,
Stop the chase,
Make a clean break,
In all a haste.

Better now than never.

-

Add on:
I love David.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V5PsSzDmfKM&feature=related
His voice is omg-so-manly-yet-so-gentle-I-can-fall-in-love-with. LOL. Really!

Oh and I forgot to mention that I've found a new book series, very much similar to Twilight! It's called Vampires Academy. Not too much about love, though. Not too sure, haven't finish reading the first chapter. HAHAHA.

He's just not that into you - I want that book badly. :/

I know you're not that into me, it's a lie.
Too many tears, too many crimes, too many lies, too many barriers.

I can only tell you how much I love you after you've told me how much is eternal.

2009-02-17T23:54:00.002+08:00

Slumdog Millionaire. Wasn't as good as I expected, or as good as the reviews.
-.-

I love nachos. But I think GV's one tastes better.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0PzkL_GvVFA

Take me where I've never been,
Help me on my feet again.
Show me that good things
come to those who wait.
Tell me I'm not on my own.
Tell me I won't be alone.
Tell me what I'm feelin' isn't some mistake.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Baby, when you look at me,
Tell me, what do you see?
Are these the eyes of
someone you could love?
'Cause everything that brought me here,
Well, now it all seems so clear.
Baby, you're the one I've been dreamin' of.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Save me from myself, you can.
And it's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love...

Only you can take me sailin'
in your deepest eyes.
Bring me to my knees and make me cry.
And no one's ever done this,
Everything was just a lie.
And I know, yes I know...

This is where it all begins,
So tell me it'll never end.
I can't fool myself,
It's you and no one else.
If I could wish upon tomorrow,
Tonight would never end.
If you asked me, I would follow.
But for now, I just pretend.
If anyone can make me fall in love, You can.

Show me that good things
Come to those who wait

Ripped a part, inside, apart, without you.

2009-02-17T01:57:00.002+08:00

I'm like bored. o_o;; Is it me or is it me that people are taking longer than usual to reply on msn? D: (Ok, it's me.) Everyone is cropped up in something of their lives...

What am I doing?

Sorry's not good enough.

2009-02-16T22:22:00.005+08:00

Yay, I changed my blogskin. (Wanted to do that before 2009 but oh well... don't feel expressful in blogger nowadays anyway.)

I don't have much to tell you.
But when I do, you're never listening, so why bother?
It's very much like a cycle if you ask me.

Time to be discreet about what I say, 'cause nothing I say matters anymore it seems.

This is the time, to finally learn. Something new. :D
Something like...... (well something I wouldn't tell you.)

You're every minute of my every day; no, make it every moment of my every breath.

2009-02-16T11:18:00.002+08:00

Let's just keep things at that. At least they'll always remain beautiful.

2009-02-16T00:06:00.003+08:00

Been exercising. Heh. You should too. (Keeps my mind off things at least.)

Went swimming with my mum today and I immediately felt that my tummy became flatter. HAHAHAHA. (Okay, maybe it's because I haven't had dinner...)

Then my mum and I walked home. From Ehub. X.x I was complaining how tired it is and my mum actually said "Small case!", and in english!

Then she told me about how she used to spent 5 hours in total climbing and descending mountains, how she spent the day farming....

I love my imaginary lover. :D

I like you better with your hair uncombed, dreamy eyes still half asleep, and voice alike a bass.

2009-02-15T01:43:00.004+08:00

An email I received goes like this:
*no offence to any Christians or Catholics*

Caller : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan (anyone)?

Operator : Yes, you can speak to me.

Caller : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan (anyone)!

Operator : You are talking to someone! Who is this?

Caller : I'm Sam Wan (Someone). And I need to talk to Annie Wan (anyone)! It's urgent.

Operator : I know you are someone and you want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?

Caller : Well... just tell my sister Annie Wan (anyone) that our brother Noel Wan (no one)has involved in an accident. Noel Wan (no one)got injured and now Noel Wan (no one) is being sent to the hospital. Right now, Avery Wan (everyone) is on his way to the hospital.

Operator : Look if no one was injured and no one was sent to the hospital, then the accident isn't an urgen t matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!

Caller : You are so rude! Who are you?

Operator : I'm Saw Lee (Sorry).

Caller : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name!!!

This is hilarious ...

Why Chinese shouldn't have Christian names:

Anne Chang => Dirty (Mandarin)
Anne Chin => Keep Quiet (Mandarin)
Faye Chen => Dusty (Mandarin)
Carl Cheng => Buttock (Hokkien)
Monica Cheng => Touching your buttocks (Hokkien)
Lucy Leow => You are dead (Hokkien)
Jane Tan => Frying eggs (Mandarin)
Suzie Leow => Lose till death (Hokkien)
Henry Mah => Hate your mum (Mandarin)
Corrine Tai => Poor fellow (Hokkien)
Paul Chan => Bankrupt (Mandarin)
Nelson Tan => Bird laying eggs (Mandarin)
Leslie Tong => Rubbish Bin (Mandarin)
Carmen Teng => Leg hair long (Hokkien)
Connie Mah => Call your mother (Cantonese)
Danny See => Squeeze you to death (Hokkien)
Rosie Teng => Screws and nails (Hokkien)
Pete Tsai => Nose droppings (Hokkien)
Macy Koh => Never die before (Cantonese)

I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise.

One chance for a lifetime; life isn't fair, is it?

2009-02-14T00:06:00.002+08:00

I don’t know why
But when I look in your eyes
I felt something that seems so right
You’ve got yours I’ve got mine
I think I’m losing my mind
'Cause I shouldn’t feel this way

Catch me, I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me, I’m falling for you

How can love let it go
When it has no place to go
And I can't go along pretending
That love is in here to stay
Catch me I'm falling for you

If I could just walk away
Without you from day to day
I would die just thinking of you
I know we can never be
More than friends, you and me
But why do I feel this way

Catch me, I’m falling for you
And I don’t know what to do

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I’m falling for you
How can time be so wrong?
For love to come along
Catch me, I’m falling for you

Maybe someday I’ll see
Why love did this to me
'Cause I can’t go along, pretending
That love is in here to stay
Catch me, I’m falling for you
Catch me, I’m falling for you

And it's wrong for me to feel this way
'Cause I don’t know what to do without you
I'm falling for you
Catch me, I’m falling for you

How can something so wrong
Feel so right all along
Catch me, I'm falling for you

Catch Me I'm Fallin' - Toni Gonzaga

"Security" needs a little fixing; how irony the repairman is the same thief.

2009-02-13T01:24:00.006+08:00

Went T3 to send Kaho off just now...

Sat at TCC to wait for time to pass, and while at it we ordered coffee. My first. Amazing? :x

First time I finished a cup (and a pretty big cup it is) of coffee. It's Oreo *something* Frappe. I forgot its middle name. LOL.

Now I'm feeling kindda floaty, bit numb, and weird. Not used to coffee I guess. Caffeine? Is it what it's called? LOL. :/

Guilty pleasure....

I realised it's hard for me to ignore people's feelings, unless I did on purpose. I don't know why but I just don't wanna hurt you. And it's difficult...

The feeling's so right, but it's wrong.

I've fed myself with hope; and had myself disappointed.
I don't wanna feed you hope, just to make you disappointed.

I give up too, too easily.

Lea Salonga - I Honestly Love You

Maybe I hang around here
Little more than I should
Both know I got somewhere else to go
But I got something to tell you
That I never thought I would
But I believe you really ought to know

I love you
I honestly love you
You dont have to answer
I see it in your eyes
Maybe it was better left unsaid
This is pure and simple
And you must realize
That its coming from my heart and not my head

I love you
I honestly love you
Im not tryin to make you feel uncomfortable
Im not tryin to make you anything at all
But this feeling doesnt come along everyday
And you shouldnt blow the chance
When youve got the chance to say
I love you (I love you)
I honestly love you

If we both were born in another place and time
This moment might be ending with a kiss
There you are with yours
And here I am with mine
So I guess well just be leaving it at this
I love you
I honestly love you
I honestly, love you

I love you

It feels like waiting for the 25th hour; it feels more than forever; it feels like never.

2009-02-12T09:58:00.002+08:00

I didn't sleep the whole night.

Really. :/

Shucks.

My head is feeling groggy, yet when I close my eyes I do not sleep. Instead.....

It's better being awake I guess.

Pictures of you; Pictures of me; Pictures we never had.

2009-02-11T19:55:00.002+08:00

I find youtube to be much more presentable-looking than imeem nowadays. Their search box and advertisement sucks. :S Besides, youtube have pictures!

I only thought about you once today.. I never stopped.

2009-02-11T02:38:00.003+08:00

Things are really getting harder. (But what do you know?)

If I do leave, I won't be looking back.

2009-02-10T01:44:00.001+08:00

Im so scared that you will see
All the weakness inside of me
Im so scared of letting go
That the pain I feel will show
Ohh
I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
That I'll never stop

I want to you know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

Im afriad that you will leave
As my secrets have been revealed
ohh
In my dreams you'll always stay
(you'll always stay)
Every breathing moment from now
I know you want to hear me speak
But I'm afraid that if I start to
That I'll never stop

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I cannot hold back the truth no more
I let you wait too long(wait to long)
Although it's hard
It scares me so
A life without you scares me more
(scares me more)

For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

I want you to know
You belong in my life
I love the hope
I see in your eyes
For you I would fly
At least I would try
For you I'll take
The last flight out

Last Flight Out - Plus One

We're under the same big, full, round, magnificent moon of 50 years.

2009-02-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

But we don't think of each other.

Maybe cause we don't see the moon,
but most likely because we don't love anymore.

And it didn't matter.

Some things you just don't question

2009-02-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

As far as i know,
i regretted.
Yes, i do.
For all the stupid reasons and gay responses,
i do, seriously.

The pain is not easy, but it'll go away eventually.

2009-02-07T22:48:00.000+08:00

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty

(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/the_click_five/empty.html

You can't be (re)moved

2009-02-07T12:50:00.001+08:00

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

And maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/the_script/the_man_who_cant_be_moved.html

It's so unbelievable. And I don't want to let it go.

2009-02-05T18:34:00.000+08:00

If only i understand what you were thinking, i wouldn't be behaving this way.
Nonetheless, it's okay, okay for you and me, to stay this way.
:)

Half of our life we don't know what we're doing; the other half we spend thinking about what we've done.

2009-02-05T18:30:00.002+08:00

Life is a waste, no?

Well, maybe.

Maybe if you find happiness in each day, life isn't such a waste at all.

Maybe if you make someone else smile each day, life isn't such a waste at all.

Maybe.

I see my future, I make my future; but you're so unhelpful.

2009-02-04T00:06:00.003+08:00

So much to express, yet all I do is dream about them.

Literally.

Have you ever heard voices in your head? Do you ever wonder if they were from the angel or the devil? I can't really tell the difference - they sound the same.

I need energy.

And a job.

You need to keep up the pace, spontaneously.

Gimme a job.

2009-02-03T01:38:00.004+08:00

Omg you know what I just remembered I'm 17.

-.-

I keep thinking I'm still like below 16.... HAHAHAH.

You know what's difficult? I'll tell you. What's difficult is trying to get you off my mind, and with that in mind, you never seem to be ever out of my mind.

Edit: ~~Something's burning but I don't know what.~~ Some people burned offerings.

More often than not, leading a good life is about thinking good things.

2009-02-02T17:14:00.002+08:00

An end is a new beginning.

&Mine? This one just began.

I will miss you, despite my attempts not to.

2009-02-02T02:38:00.002+08:00

Here without you - 3 doors down

No other song more apt than this.

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

No bus will drive my love away, no distance greater than knowing you're only a mile away, but I won't see you.

2009-02-01T03:02:00.004+08:00

Ok. I don't know what to blog about. :(

Happened like the second time today omg! (By today I mean Saturday..)
I had things to blog about, but by the time my blogger loads, I forgot. -.-

15 people online, no one to talk to. Time: 3.07am.
3 Busy, 5 Away, 1 blocked, 6 Online, Including one robot and myself. LOL.

And there's this strange feeling hanging in the air, not exactly a sense of loss though.
Much more like something you know you will miss a lifetime, something like missing a person forever.

....................

I don't know! Nevermind. :(

Shall blog about the week.

Mon: I went to my gu po's house to bai nian. Come home. Watch tv. Eat dinner. Entertain relatives.....

Tues: Stay home. Wait for relatives and friends to come over. Eat lunch. Entertain a bit...

Wed: A relative and my mum's friend came over really early. And why can't a single person give angbao! My relative gave me one but my mum said I wasn't supposed to accept it. =/ He's my mum's cousin's son I think, which makes him the same generation as me. I think. I'm not so good about those chinese terms for different generation of relatives. Then went to library to return book and borrow back the same book, 'cause I've been lazy and didn't read it until the last few days. And I haven't finished reading it duhhhhh. Met up with Mongyie and Zhangke cos ZK came back from the US! :) Went to a neighbourhood stall and had fries. The oreo ice blended taste quite good I think I might wanna buy it some time.... (I realise what I mean by sometimes - it never happens. I'm so lazy like that. Bleh.)

Thurs: I think I stayed home. Oh. No! My mum woke me up at 10am in the morning (10am omg?!!?!? WHYYYY ALWAYS 10AM??) Then we went to City Hall to walk. My mum intended to go to the Chun Dao He Pan but amazingly and not very wisely they decided to start the event at 6pm this year, with no notice. Ok, probably many of the people who went there didn't notice a change of time, but was there even a notice?! So disappointed, we went to Suntec City to walk. Shared a bowl of japanese noodles at the foodcourt which had books wallpaper as their "cutlery cleaning area", I don't know what's it called. Books! I wonder why. Do we eat paper, or by looking at books while eating makes us digest the content in them? K, the deco was nice though. Just weird I thought. Didn't buy anything cos the apparels cost a bomb. My mum caught attention of this leather bag she really liked and cost $300 and we were like HAR? WAIT WIN TOTO OK. LOL. Then I saw some other clothings but they cost almost a hundred. -.- Decided to go to the Branded Man's Wear Fair and my mum bought my dad 2 shirts. My dad likes bright coloured shirts that are short sleeved. I preferred dark coloured long sleeves! Looks more...._. And whatever I suggested to my mum she was like "Nono papa doesn't like this kind." :S

Fri: Met Tracy, Fanghui and Vivien at Tmall. Yijie and Barry couldn't make it sadly. :( And I couldn't contact Nicholas he prolly changed his hp number. :((((((( Ate Fish&Co, my first. The nuggets were great. The tonic cola was great. The NY Fish and Chips were great. The service was great. Why? They knew us deep inside! It took them very long to serve us, so we could talk a little more. It took them even longer to give us the bill, which gave us even longer time to talk and do catching up with each other. The funny thing is, they seem to know we didn't want to leave so quickly as they took like AGES to collect our bill. LOL. Later we decided to sit down and talk at mac. It was a while later before we bought some ice cream cos we were in their territory, by any way.

Then later I went to the library because pork was sleeping. :( The book I wanted to read was loaned out so quickly, so I just grabbed another book which told what happened earlier before to a main character that wasn't written in the actual series. And I saw this person who looked awefully familiar, but I can't remember who. Until just a few hours ago. This 3 person(I don't know same or not), looked alike.

Then later met Pork, Zk, Wc and Kaho for dinner. Wanted to watch movie but with no luck. So we just had dinner. And walked around tmall. And walked Zk to his bus stand. And walked to Pork's house. And I took bus home, while Wc walked Kaho home.

Ok, I know I sounded boring, but... I can't really blog nowadays. :( Pardon my verbal tone of writing. Writing should never sound like verbal speech, but haiyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

I keep falling for you, and I wonder why it doesn't hurt until a long time after.

Estimate my level of boredom by this:
12 People Online, 3 Busy, 4 Away, 5 Online, including a msnbot and myself.

Edit: 3.44am, 10 Online, and I'm lazy with the rest of the details.
Edit: 3.48am, 11 Online, blah blah blah........

Temasek

2009-01-31T16:20:00.003+08:00

Somehow, I just have nothing to blog nowadays. LOL.

Since the inspiration to blog is..... vanishing.

If you get what I mean..

If you get what I mean.

Given all the time in this world, what has passed remains passed.

2009-01-30T02:11:00.003+08:00

If I were quicker by 5 minutes, no make it 15 minutes, on Sunday the 25th Jan, I could have borrowed (or actually asked someone to help me borrow) He's Just Not That Into You. -.-

Now I have no idea when it will take for the next book to be available in the library, seriously before the movie. :( Gahhhhhh.

It's a funny book. Straight forward, yet subtle humour.

Just a couple of paragraphs can be read here:
http://www.usatoday.com/life/books/excerpts/2004-09-08-hes-just_x.htm

& The Subtle Knife is killing the part of my brain which controls "anticipation". A good book keeps the reader wanting to know the end of the story right away, yet at the thought of it makes you sad that such a great book is gonna end like that. Spirit war, daemons, spectres, spell that open doors to another world, this one mystery man that seem to have appeared in different worlds and is hunted by people in different worlds, this one powerful man that has the ability to split the world apart and calls upon angels and machines to help him fight a Spirit war.

I can't get enough.

Since when I started a book craze. x.x (I still have Inkheart & Twilight & I haven't read L.O.T.R. even though that was like yearsssss ago...)

Take the chance; a change, charge!

2009-01-29T00:01:00.003+08:00

Well, happy new year once again! o.O

(It's hard to stay away from thoughts that I shouldn't be thinking, yet just thinking about "Not thinking of it" comes a trail load of nonsense, if you get what I mean.)

A deal... Is sometimes more of a sacrifice.
One you cannot trade, the one which really breaks.

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

2009-01-26T21:43:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year!

NICOLE

2009-01-25T18:08:00.001+08:00

Byebye

The Subtle Knife

2009-01-25T02:47:00.003+08:00

Ok. I think my blog needs a change. Soon.

Shall start reading my library book which is due on 28th Jan, but I haven't read it yet. :x

The Subtle Knife, sequal to The Northern Lights.

If pain can erase things; If pain can change things.
IF. Only it doesn't.

The more I try, the even more I fail; I'm damn bad at this.

2009-01-24T00:37:00.002+08:00

INKHEART.

Must watch.

I feel like getting the book! :x But I haven't even got my Twilight series yet.... :(

A pain that's killing me everyday

2009-01-23T00:36:00.003+08:00

David Archuleta - To Be With You

I've been alone so many nights now,
And I've been waitin' for the stars to fall.
I keep holdin' out for what I don't know
To be with you, just to be with you.

So here I am staring at the moon tonight,
Wondering how you look in this light.
Maybe you're somewhere thinkin' about me too.
To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

And I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually..

And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road.
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you, just to be...

Holding you for the very first time, never letting go.
What I wouldn't give to feel that way...
Oh...

Oh, to be with you...

Oh, and I can't imagine two worlds spinnin' apart
Come together eventually.

And when you're standin' here in front of me,
That's when I know that God does exist.
'Cause He will have answered every single prayer.
To be with you, just to be with you, yeah.
You....

I can no longer love you, I'm fighting it, I am.

2009-01-21T19:22:00.002+08:00

One day I won't be around,
One day I can't harness any power,
But regardless of that, there'll never be one day I don't love you.

I'll trade you the whole world, mine, I mean. (For the thing that's keeping you alive.)

2009-01-20T23:31:00.006+08:00

Seventeen. (:

I don't want to lose all I have, because I've lost everything I don't.

Tonight I'll cherish, and I'll keep the faith.

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7 (NLT) - Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Further than now, is it better this way?

2009-01-20T00:11:00.003+08:00

It's best this way, when you still remember each and everyone you love.
Where they're still close by.
While they still love you.

What else matters?

Sometimes you hold so tight
It slips right through your hands
Will I ever understand?

Do you believe in love at first sight, or should I walk by again?

2009-01-18T23:18:00.002+08:00

Speechless.

You leave me speechless.

Perfection is not about being all right, it's about having always tried.

2009-01-17T13:21:00.008+08:00

Flawless is not perfection; attempts are what shape it.

When you said that that was the perfect choice, have you tried the other?

Cause I believe you should give yourself a chance.

Ooooh Ooooh I wanna be girl let me be
I wanna be everything your man's not
And I'm gonna give you
Every little thing I've got
Cause you are more than a man needs
That's why I say you're truly my destiny
I'm gonna get cha
If it takes me until forever
No you don't feel me
If forever turns into never
I'll let you know my love
Is just as strong
And for you never just ain't that long

I wanna be the smile you put on your face
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace
I wanna be where ever is your favorite place
I just wanna be close
I wanna be the hat you put on your head
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs
Ohh I just wanna be close

And even if the day turns into night
I will love you by candlelight
And even if the water starts to run over
I'll be there to put you on my shoulders
And if it's hard for you to get to sleep
I will sing you a melody
I wanna feel this way
Till the end of time, cause I pray one day
That you'll be mine

I wanna be the smile you put on your face
I wanna be your hands when you say your grace
I wanna be where ever is your favorite place
I just wanna be close
I wanna be the hat you put on your head
I wanna be the sheets you put on your bed
I wanna be the skirt wrapped around your legs
I just wanna be close

See my life is filled
With ups and downs
I'm okay
When you're around
And when I'm in a storm
And my nights are cold
Reach out your hands for me to hold
See you're my queen on a throne
And you're the reason
For a song and I can't wait
To fill you up with love
Fill you with love

I wanna be the sun,
Your stars, and your moon
I wanna be a hot summer day in June
I wanna be the smell
Of your sweet perfume
Or I just wanna be close
I wanna be the seed
That bear ya life brand new
I wanna be the one
That's so faithful and true
I wanna be the man down that aisle
In that suit, yes
Or I just wanna be close

Avant - I Wanna Be

NDS, still waiting.

2009-01-16T15:00:00.004+08:00

Ok. So...

The free mp3 isn't an ipod shuffle. :( Just in the shape of one. LOL. =.= And to my surprise my dad had the same mp3, same colour, same ipod shuffle design, given out by his company and it's 2GB omg! My comp can't connect this current mp3 so I don't know what its size is. -.-

Nintendo DS... Needa wait until we've been successfully registered into the course before a lucky draw for DS and PSP will be held.

LOL.

Alrite, no frets, still praying for DS!

Comeee let mee getttt ittttttt.!!!!!!!~

NINTENDO DS! COME TO ME!

2009-01-16T03:12:00.004+08:00

Lol. If you haven't seen this, check it out!

http://www.kotrtcomic.blogspot.com/

Ok, haven't been blogging frequently, so let me recap.

Wednesday: Went TP in the morning. Totally psyched to go FDM. (More details later.) After that I met up with my cousins at Orchard and we ate at a Japanese-western restaurant for dinner. We had Spinach Spaghetti (Really good! It's green and it's tasty! MUST TRY!), a small prawn pasta, really salty vegetables, bacon and seaweed pizza and egg spaghetti. (PS I had spaghetti in the noon too.... LOL..)

The food are really delicious, so western yet it taste authentically japanese! The pizza is really really crispy and the cheese and seaweed don't taste local. Btw, the crust is like paper thin! Cooler than pizza hut's viva pizza or smth.

Then after a really filling meal my cousins gave me a surprise early birthday celebration! Hahaha. First time I had people singing me a birthday song in public! HAHAHA feels good actually! XD

Thursday: Sleep. And more sleep. Submitted my JAE choices.

1. Diploma in Integrated Facility Design & Management (FDM)
2. Diploma in Psychology Studies
3. Diploma in Hospitality & Tourism Management (HTM)
4. Diploma in Leisure & Resort Management (LRM)
5. Diploma in Law & Management
6. Diploma in Game and Entertainment Technology
7. Psychology & Community Services
8. Tourism & Resort Management
9. Diploma in Human Resource Management with Psychology
10. Diploma in Tourism and Resort Management
11. Diploma in Games Design & Development
12. Tampines Junior College

Lemme list the pros & cons of FDM.

1. Free Ipod shuffle/PSP/Nintendo DS for putting FDM as first choice. DS! Tempting isn't it? But don't worry I didn't put it as first choice just because of that! And I'm not sure if the DS is still available. Ipod shuffle isn't so bad too, considering that I don't have an mp3.

2. Bright future. Since it's facilities management, I can work at many places. But IR is a good choice definitely, sure high bonus. HAHAHA. Think future, think money. Plus Ken told me to choose a course for it's worth. So I'm approved by a six pointer. (:

3. In demand. It's a pretty new course, and the IR will be lacking manpower in this area. I'll be in demand so job searching won't be too far away to reach it. Besides, students who have yet to graduate have already secured careers in the IR or Sands (some resort I think)!

4. Broad opportunities. I will be learning a bit of everything. So no worries about changing what I wanna do in the future! From hospitality and tourism to banking and finance to property agent to architectural design to civil engineering, what's there to worry? (Psychology is a good course, yet I'm not one who will do well in counselling or social work I think... Since ya know it's kindda like a volunteer kindda thing...)

5. Engineering school. I would be able to see pretty Mongyie pretty often! Need I say more? :D

6. 2nd tier jobs. I will be looking at job aspects in the second tier. First tier includes HTM & LRM and other front line jobs like desk reception etc. In the second tier I would be managing these people! WAHAHAHA. Speak about facilities management. Hehhh. FDM learn a bit of everything not for fun.

7. New experience. I think it's time for me to look out of the box I've closed myself in. Time to seek something new, something fun, exciting, thrilling, and this is a leap of faith. Trust myself. Trust the IR, trust Singapore. LOL.

8. Less competitive. Because this is the first course catered for facilities management in IR! Courses like LRM and HTM probably have half of the poly students eyeing them like candies. And there's an overload of HTM students. My cousin mentioned that her friends from HTM found it difficult to find jobs. So yes, FDM FTW!

9. Overkill certifications. You need to check the website on this one.

10. No need worry about Cut Off Points! COP 16. Less worries compared to HTM and LRM don't you think?

Cons: Sorry only ONE. It's considered engineering, so the modules are geared towards engineering. But it's not so bad! My dad did Electronic Engineering! I might have inherited some of his genius genes in relation to engineering. :D

Ok. This sounds like paid advertisement for FDM. -.- The lecturer really won me over on their side!

Add: Engineering School provides scholarships! I'm applying! LOL.

TP Scholarship 4U...

Dear “O” level graduate,

You would have received your “O” level results by now, and we hope that you have done well.
As you consider your further studies options, we would like to inform you that you can get a TP scholarship to do your diploma course at Temasek Engineering School.

The criteria for getting this scholarship is your “O” level results and CCA record during your secondary school.

If you get this scholarship, we will pay for your entire 3-year course at Temasek Engineering School, worth about $7,500. In addition, you may also be selected to undergo a Student Leadership Programme and have the chance to take part in overseas programmes as well as leadership and talent development programmes.

Once you get into TP, you can apply for this scholarship. The closing date for applications is 30 April 2009. Application forms are available at our JAE centre and students’ One-Stop Service Centre.

So do opt for a course at Temasek Engineering School as your first choice at JAE !

I'll always remember you, always.

2009-01-14T01:59:00.002+08:00

Thank you, for always being there, your presence.
Really.

And.
4 Years ago, if it'd been more obvious, I wouldn't be sitting here regretting.

Funny how courage tears us apart.

Get me a ticket, plan me an escape, my love.

2009-01-13T00:49:00.005+08:00

For you've taken away my heart, and sucked away my breath, and what else can I ask of you?

DONE & OVER WITH!

Hahaha. Expected results. Almost the same as prelims.

And I'm moving on...

Because I'll never be good enough for you.

这是爱我们的爱
还不确定却好实在
把你贴在胸怀
静静的代替表白
再不愿放开
这是爱给你的爱
没名字却停不下来
在忐忑里期待
却越总想到未来是你我才明白这就是爱

A chinese song that Mongyie sent me.

Not yet not yet

2009-01-12T02:15:00.001+08:00

It's not yet.

And I feel terrible.

Ngee Ann legacy

2009-01-09T17:59:00.002+08:00

If Ngee Ann Poly was in Tampines, like Ngee Ann Sec, I'd definitely go there. x.x

IT'S THE ONLY POLY THAT GAVE AWAY GOODIE BAGS AND A CRAZY LOT OF FREEBIES. Like free popcorn, free drinks, free Cup-O-Luck... =x

Singapore Poly was small.

Temasek Poly was even smaller.

X.x

Stick to the plan, damn.

You're funny in the way how you never fail to make me laugh

2009-01-08T03:38:00.006+08:00

2 fallen angels in 3 heavens.

3.45 AM now. And. Silence can be pretty deafening.

Let's see my week so far.

Monday - Bugis
Tuesday - Bugis
Wednesday - Bugis
Thursday - TP Open House, Bugis

-.- Where is the originality omg. Bugis bugis bugisssssss?!?!?!?!

Please, Friday, please, no Bugis.

This is no surprise already, but look here anyway.
CLICK!

SINGAPORE: The Ministry of Education said the results of the 2008 GCE O-Level Examination will be released on January 12.

The Education Ministry said posting results are tentatively scheduled to be out on January 30.

Hais. (I don't like using this word, but this word effectively brings out how I feel right now.) Hais.

1. I don't know what to expect of myself.
2. I don't know if I can meet the expectation of people around me.
3. I don't know how my emotions are going to take the wheel on Monday.

Please, to everyone who reads this, please do not ask for my results on that day, or any other day thereafter. I'll tell you if I want to. (Ok, not like everyone would be reading this....)

X.X

>.>

Everytime I see you, undeniably I don't want to take my eyes off you.
Everytime I think of you, irresistably I want to hold you.
Yet everytime reality sets in, I don't have the courage to even speak to you.

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you would not forsake me
I give you my life
Would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

I'm wondering how I ever got by
Without you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go the one thing that's true
Is everything I do I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
When I say I love you darling that means for good
So open up your heart and let me in
And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
This I swear

So whenever you get weary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down my love

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there

And I will love you 'til forever
Until death do us part we'll be together
So take my hand and hold on tight
And we'll get there
Ohh we'll get there
This I swear

This I Swear - Nick Lachey

I need to hear you speak my name.

2009-01-07T03:34:00.005+08:00

I don't know if what I'm doing is right.

And I don't think it is.

But I really really don't like explaining.

Why is it that lies are easier to believe than truths?
Why is it that lies are easier to speak than the truth?

Why is it when you lie, people believe,
and when you tell the truth, they think you're lying?

I think I'm caught within this thin, faded line of white and black.

I can't tell them apart anymore, but maybe there isn't a specific white and black.

Sorry is the hardest word to say, when you really mean it.

You've found a crack in my resistance,
You've found a way to wear me down,
Yeah I just look at you and there's no where out so..

Edit: I forgot to mention on my previous post that while at Bugis on Monday with Juliet and Elaine, we've heard a couple of times a song on the radio that goes "Stay away from Juliet..." Hahahah! Damn funny! xD

Never let the fear of striking out stop you from playing the game

2009-01-05T23:21:00.002+08:00

Wild Child - Awesome cast, same thing. Handsome handsome handsome male lead. Beautiful female lead.

*Okay just getting on with it....

The Princess Bride.

Sleep, because it's where Prince Charming will find you.

2009-01-05T03:08:00.004+08:00

I actually typed "fleep" instead of "find" in my title. LOL. Where Prince Charming will fleep you. Right.

I watched Another Cinderella Story. Woo. :D Wished I were part of a fairytale. Movies are so misleading. The male lead is always gorgeous, bright, everything, and the female lead is always tantalising, and they always find their happy endings after a series of plotted events.

It's become so hard
For me to be surprised
You're bringin back the real me
No judgement in your eyes
Cause when I dance with you
It's how I speak the truth
Just classic when we met
Now you made me new

http://www.imeem.com/kissdasun/music/JV7gh6Ep/drew_seeley_selena_gomez_new_classic/
Next Movie: Wild Child
Reason: Juliet can explain. LOL.

See my previous blog title.

Movie Marathon

2009-01-04T19:09:00.002+08:00

A Cinderella Story

Handsome? Very. Yes I know. LOL. Especially the costume. *_*

Photos taken from http://chadmmurray.org/gallery/thumbnails.php?album=143.

So much in the world to do, yet all pointless without you.

2009-01-03T23:35:00.002+08:00

I found out it's not what you're doing (study, work, play, have meals with, etc) that's making you happy, it's who you're doing things with that's making you happy.

So what if you have money but no one to buy gifts for.
So what if you have a luxurious apartment but no family to care for.
So what if you have friends but no one to talk to when you really needed company.
So what?

So....

START CHERISHING LA. LOL.

Today's my dad's birthday but he has been working since early morning till now. -.-

I realised it's not how many things I wanna do,
I realised it's how much I wanted to [just] be with you.

*music* http://www.imeem.com/people/QSKy3D_/music/PfRFOG9L/westlife_world_of_our_own/

If I said the past doesn't bother me, I'd be lying.
But I'll accept. Because. It's over.

Vous serez mon amoureux pour toujours

2009-01-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

Not very exact but nevermind! LOL. It's only a title...

New Year, feels like the same every year.

Feels like the same every year, because it is.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-01-01T00:17:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 2009! :D

Hahahah wishing everyone success for 2009! (Ma dao cheng gong)

Success in academics,
Success in love,
Success in career,
Success in EVERYTHING! xD

Fireworks live on Channel 5 was really brilliant! (Better than those usual ones I've seen in Singapore.) A good start. :D Okay la although not really "live" but still very nice! xD I realise fireworks are more beautiful when watched from far. Usually at the scene we cannot get to appreciate the full view. So yeap, HAPPY 2009!

BLESS YOU!
and bless me. xD

I really really can't bear to leave you behind

2008-12-31T22:30:00.004+08:00

and I'm not even sure myself if I can do it.

Anyway, a new year is arising.

Time to start anew, time to leave the baggage behind. (:
I'll miss you
I've realised things were getting too complicated.

The last of 2008

2008-12-30T15:13:00.003+08:00

The Call (Narnia Soundtrack).MP3 - Regina Spektor

This is the song I feel when I see you in my head.

The Call - Regina Spektor (OST of Narnia: Prince Caspian)

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word
And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget
Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

PS: The actor Prince Caspian is really good looking. LOL.

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :D

2008-12-25T00:08:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Today is the day to be jolly!

Happy Boxing Day!

I won't be in Singapore the next few days so I'll wish you all in advance! :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Dear Santa

How do you put into words, feelings that are beyond words? Words won't do justice.
I wanted things to last, so last they will.

When you're goin' on 17, and still believein' Santa Claus is real.

2008-12-24T01:37:00.002+08:00

Ooooh well, we all live in our own world.

Maybe you don't, but I do.

Very very bored. No games for Christmas....... D: Santa!

I can't believe what I've been doing these days not playing any game, it's so weird, empty, and meaningless.

Just recently I've been questioning myself what am I here for, to breathe in the air? Or to make a change?

I alone can make changes...? To what?

If everyone had a purpose in life I wonder why isn't our purpose clearly defined so that we actually know what we should be doing, and not wander about life aimlessly.... like how I've spent my past 16 years, thinking about what I should do, what I am supposed to do, what I am designed to do.

If everyone had a purpose in life, his/her purpose should be laid down as clearly as breakfast on the table. Otherwise what is the purpose for if the purpose is unknown? What if you wasted your whole life searching for yours? If not, maybe life doesn't have much purpose at all...

But how will I know? The answer is as undefined as my purpose. Evolution huh?

Maybe the whole concept of having a purpose is evolution.

Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven

2008-12-23T00:43:00.002+08:00

Supposing you've heard the Shayne Ward version and loved it.

Listen to this! Original singer. :D I think it's better. Heard it yesterday on my way home, it was played by the taxi's music player. Very very very very very nicely sang.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVSCCPX3tgA

No need for any promises, I'll never even leave you to promise to be back.

Is it tomorrow yet?

2008-12-20T00:59:00.006+08:00

Ok, so we didn't get to finish all the arts exhibit, still. :/

But no frets! We shall be going again. LOL.

Wonderful.

Firstly, Suting says he is going to find all the museums in Singapore and visit them one by one. (Please don't forget me! I don't wanna grow mushrooms :PP)

Secondly, Bx found Zhilin to go with us!

Thirdly, we are all becoming weirdos. :x I hope my hairstyle won't be changing too much!

Seriously, the longer you look at those arts, the more appealling they are!

Yes yes I'm going again! :D

Anyone wanna come? Heh! Aesthetics!

And har I just got cheated by a bus uncle today cause of my own absentmindedness. My EZLink was in my pocket, but I forgot, and I told the uncle I didn't have my ezlink card and he said to pay $1.20. Just after I paid it and collected the bus ticket, I touched my pocket and pfft my EZLink card is with me. *Sigh* This lesson cost 75c to learn.

Sunburn cream is making my hair stick together, really argh. :( I'm irritated with my hair. :/

Imeem is uber gay. With their search box (some money making frauds). ZZzzz.
THERE: http://www.imeem.com/trangboo/music/q-v06nto/blue_blue_guilty/

If it's wrong to tell the truth
Then what am I supposed to do
When all I want to do is speak my mind (speak my mind)
If it's wrong to do what's right
I'm prepared to testify
If loving you with all my heart's a crime
Then I'm guilty

Good ol' R&B is always better.

All of a sudden there's so many things I wanna do.

...Like going to Mt Faber (on bike!?) LOL.

Come people people let's do this right.

PS My sunburn is itching, my skin is peeling. Sigh..... How am I going to... tomorrow.... sigh....

I've fought
I've tried
I've gave it all my might
I've failed
I've felt
I've tried again
I've hurt
I've been injured
and I've given up.
I've cried
I've teared
I've regretted
I've seen
I've understood
I've misunderstood
I've known
I've heard
I've predicted
and I've lost.
I've stood back up
I've retaliate
I've pained
I've pined
I've suffered
I've misered
I've depressed
but most importantly, I've learnt.
I've tried to walk away - nope no use - so now I won't try anymore.
I've tried to talk myself out - nope no use - so now I don't do it anymore.
So now I'll try, to just leave it to time, and I believe, one day I'll come to light.

I thought I was recovering, but scars don't go away.

2008-12-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

The scar acts as a reminder, to which my wound keeps opening; and tears that I've tried to hide the days I weren't much thinking.

My emotions are in a swirl now, kindda weird.

Like... I'm just suddenly tired of games. HA? If you will ever hear it from me, it's now. My computer restarted due to an automated update and when I log back into desktop I lost my determination to play... It was my favourite game though, one of my earliest games.

And.. some other feelings. Messed up. I think it's related to my messed up body clock. :/ I tried sleeping at 2am. Result? I DIDN'T FREAKING SLEEP. I tossed and turned and closed my eyes and breathed slowly and the next thing I knew the room was bright and I couldn't lie in bed anymore.

Anyway, my dad bought me a new hard disk cause the old one was really cranky (it takes a while to start up and "Lack of virtual disk space" keeps bugging me.) I haven't changed the hard disk though... there are things I don't want to let go. I think I actually developed feelings for my computer, it's like my electronic boyfriend. I've spend more than 3/4 of my life with my computer I think. Removing any part of it is.... IDK! I told ya my feelings are haywire ATM.

My sunburn is burning. It's painful, and red, and applying sunburn cream doesn't ease the burning much. :( My muscles are aching, too. But I had a good night's sleep yesterday. :)

Sometimes, times like now, I feel like life is nothing real. The good times are dreamlike, the bad times are nightmares. I feel like life is transient. Life is a short span of a hundred years if you are really lucky, but at that age death would have been an escape. Diseases, illness, vulnerability- life.

Up hills are long and arduous, down slopes are breathtaking yet short.

Ok. I need to sleep, though it's only 3.38AM, I think if I don't sleep now I'm going to go on babbling about whatever that comes into my mind unknowningly, things that has been translated from my intangible thoughts into words that make no sense.

Sometimes the world is everything, yet other times the world leaves only you behind, rid of everything you dearly hold so that you'll dwell in your own pathetic rut.

Lactic Acid

2008-12-17T23:37:00.002+08:00

First time I...

- Cycled from Pasir Ris to Changi, around Changi Village, a stretch of East Coast Park around Airport, Marine Parade, Katong, Suntec City until we reached The Singapore Arts Museum. (Such a long distance... My shoulders, legs, and butt gave way to weakness)
- Heard of Changi Hotel, and entered it.
- Tried Peranakan snacks.
- Had a taste of steak.... and blood...... (It's good though. =x)
- Went into an Indian temple.
- Went into the Singapore Arts Museum (but we didn't explore finish everything).
- Thought so deeply about art and what it actually is trying to convey.
- Saw a guy with really weird hairstyle. (I guess it's an art.)
- Crossed a red traffic light intentionally. (I very guai one lo xD)
- Crossed a road with only vehicle traffic lights. (Pretty frightening.)
- Had a caterpillar crawling on my hand.
- Saw worms in my bag. (3 or 4 of them omg.)
- Know that Changi has many chalets that are super super cool.
- Heard of Johor Battery.
- Know that ECP has very scenic trees. (They are like high up and their leaves are very thin and you should go see it.)
- Cycled this far, sunburnt, but had a lot of fun. (Though my legs are... useless it seems to me now.)

This week is like what... Body building week?
Just last Sunday I walked from Tampines Interchange back home. Luckily there was always someone there. Otherwise, so scary!

:O

Inexplicably, I found my answer, yet this answer I couldn't accept.

Every pain you feel makes you stronger than before

2008-12-17T01:30:00.002+08:00

This is purely a joke that I copy-pasted from a game forum.

A little boy goes to his dad and asks, 'What is Politics?'

Dad says, 'Well son, let me try to explain it this way:

I am the head of the family , so call me The President.

Your mother is the administrator of the money, so we call her the Government.

We are here to take care of your needs, so we will call you the People.

The nanny , we will consider her the Working Class.

And your baby brother, we will call him the Future.

Now think about that and see if it makes sense.

So the little boy goes off to bed thinking about what Dad has said.

Later that night, he hears his baby brother crying, so he gets up to check on him.

He finds that the baby has severely soiled his diaper.

So the little boy goes to his parent's room and finds his mother asleep.
Not wanting to wake her, he goes to the nanny's room. Finding the door locked, he peeks in the keyhole and sees his father in bed with the nanny.
He gives up and goes back to bed.

The next morning, the little boy say's to his father, 'Dad, I think I understand the concept of politics now.'

The father says, 'Good, son, tell me in your own words what you think politics is all about.'

The little boy replies, 'The President is screwing the Working Class while the Government is sound asleep.The People are being ignored and the Future is i n deep ****.

LOL.

Top 5 Facts for this Name (Sijin Chen):

1. 33% of the letters are vowels. Of one million first and last names we looked at, 60.6% have a higher vowel make-up. This means you are averagely envoweled.

2. In ASCII binary it is... 01010011 01101001 01101010 01101001 01101110 00100000 01000011 01101000 01100101 01101110

3. Backwards, it is Nijis Nehc... nice ring to it, huh?

4. In Pig Latin, it is Ijinsay Enchay.

5.People with this first name are probably: Male or female... We don't know yet. We're working on it!

Name Origin and Meaning:

Forename:
Origin: Hmmm... Sorry, we don't know.

Surname:
Origin: Chinese origins - from name of the region of Chen in present-day Henan province. Gui Man, a descendant of the emperor Shun (2257?2205 B.C.), was selected by Wu Wang, the first king of the Zhou dynasty in 1122 B.C., to guard the memory of the ancient emperors to help Wu Wang remain in power. Gui Man was granted the region of Chen and was posthumously named Chen Hugong, and his descendants came to adopt the surname Chen.

3 Things You Didn't Know:

1. Your personal power animal is the Short-beaked Echidna

2. Your 'Numerology' number is 1. If it wasn't bulls**t, it would mean that you are ambitious, independent, and self-sufficient. Although you are generally happy, loving, dynamic and charismatic, you can sometimes be egotistical, selfish and melodramatic.

3. According to the US Census Bureau°, fewer than 0.001% of US residents have the first name 'Sijin' and 0.0436% have the surname 'Chen'. The US has around 300 million residents, so we guesstimate there is only 1 American who goes by the name Sijin Chen.

http://www.isthisyour.name/name.php?forename=Sijin&surname=Chen

PS. The person in the related blog posts is so not me.

I don't usually fall, but when I do, I fall my hardest.

2008-12-16T15:56:00.002+08:00

Ok, haven't been blogging because of work and a long lost beloved. XD

What, you ask? Why should I tell you?

And then.... I don't really feel like I have much to blog about either. :/

I keep psyching myself about things that don't matter, but my wishes were unheard of.

18th song: Another You - Cascada

2008-12-11T03:16:00.002+08:00

Saw it on Tracy's blog, decided to do it. :D
I used my Driftcity music playlist.
It's super entertaining.

Instructions:
1. Put your Windows Media Player/iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THE SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.

1. If someone says, "Is this okay?" You say?
All Out Of Love - Air Supply (No, I'm so lost without you. LOL.)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Leavin' - Jesse McCartney (There's a line that goes "No stress no stress no stress, girl you deserve nothing but the best". Wahahah.)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
Human - Jon McLaughlin (Actually I like vampires more. =x)

4. How do you feel today?
You're Beautiful - James Blunt (My life is brilliant, my life is pure. xD)

5. What is your life's purpose?
This I Promise You - N'Sync (I've loved you forever and lifetimes before)

6. What is your motto?
Listen To Your Heart - D.H.T. (This is true.)

7. What do your friends think of you?
In Pieces (Bonus Track) - Backstreet Boys (Errr...)

8. What do you think of your parents?
I'll Never Break Your Heart - Backstreet Boys (I suppose.)

9. What do you think about very often?
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis (Commentless.)

10. What is 2 + 2?
The Way You Look At Me (Album Version) - Christian Bautista (Hello, I don't go for my maths teacher. x.x)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
Skyway Avenue - We The Kings (I'll die for you on Skyway Avenue.)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Superman (It's Not Easy) - Five For Fighting (Eh how did my music player know this?!?$@&*$)

13. What is your life story?
For You I Will (Confidence) - Teddy Geiger (Yes I will do anything for you.)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
What Makes You Different (Makes You Beautiful) - Backstreet Boys (Oh oh I'm going to be something different.)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
Say Goodbye - Chris Brown (WTH LOL.)

16. (Own qn) What do you think of when you see the person you don't like?
Can't Say - BBMak (Yeah, I can't say.)

17. (Own qn) What do you think about when you think of school?
World Of Our Own (US Mix) - Westlife (LOL.)

Good night/morning whichever you prefer.

Don't look back in regrets, time is too precious to dwell on the past.

2008-12-10T23:58:00.012+08:00

If it doesn't make you happy, don't do it.

There are many things in life that is pointless, but it's not about the worth. It's about who you're making smile and who you're giving happiness to that makes the point.

Girl don't be foolish. A charming prince that is ideal like the one in your mind and perfect like the one in your heart only exists in imagination.

Usually it's a girl ruining another girl's life, too bad you didn't guess that right.

I suppose I've gotten over it, too bad you will never.

I'm sorry my words are harsh, but vulgarities don't work for me as well as they work for you. I don't scold, I merely tell you how I feel, however harsh my emotions are.

"If you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them."

Never ever do things you don't want to just to please others, in the end eventually both parties get hurt.

Just some not very random thoughts that I have, piece them up if you can. Don't think that everything has a link though.

"Learn, unlearn, relearn." - Tian Kwan

Girls are good at toying with masculine feelings, but better at faking feminine feelings. I've enough, I've learnt.

Socialising is a human necessity, but we fail to see that happiness is not related to socialising, instead it's the primary cause of unhappiness.

PS. The "you" referred in this post is absolutely general, like most of my posts are. Most.

Life is ever changing, it's about how well you adapt.

2008-12-10T20:41:00.003+08:00

Dizi chalet was a learning trip.

Everything is a learning process, isn't it?

A talk with a senior was really inspiring, made me lose all my fears of receiving my O level results. :D

Didn't sleep a wink, but I finally met someone who has equivalent or better nocturnal abilities than me. LOL. Though I did get a little shaken when the sun had risen. :/

And BX agreed to go touring Singapore with me on the bicycle, but I don't know how fast is 40km/h. Hmmm.

At about 4am Shuangying, Kaho and I went to the beach. First time going out to the beach at such a time, and I was amazed that we weren't the only ones there. Pasir Ris Park beats East Coast Park in lighting. ECP is dangerously dark at night.

Overall, dizi chalet was really enjoyable. (:

I still like the idea of being a vampire... but drinking blood creeps me.

No buts, no sorries, no regrets.

"要做个女强人还是强女人?"

Cold, inside out.

2008-12-08T16:42:00.003+08:00

Raining today.

I wanted to sleep longer, but my brother kept waking me up periodically so I ended up waking at 3pm++ with an unfinished dream that I forgot already.

It was cool though, the dream.

I've learnt to lie the truthful way.

Everytime I look at you, I fall in love all over again.

2008-12-08T03:25:00.002+08:00

My legs hurt.

My toes are swollen.

My arms are aching.

My wrists burning.

Get the story from me.

I'm not cut out for pretence, yet I pretend I am.

2008-12-05T23:42:00.005+08:00

I shudder at your name, don't ask - I really wished I don't feel that way.

I flinch at how you portray yourself - I see you through so easily. I could be wrong, no doubt. But I can't be, you're too good, too good for me and I know I am correct.

Everything I cannot see, is because you hide.

Take my life, my love, my soul, my spirit, my hopes, my dreams with you, everything. You're so good at that you'll only be getting better, resistance will only prove my weakness.

And what do you understand? I'll tell you.
You only understand that without the sun, the world is dark.

But it's not it.

So much feelings to express, no outlet to.
And this is the last place I want to say it. So open to public, so vulnerable, anybody could be offended when I don't mean anything.
Yet is it really nothing at all?
Did I really not want you to know?

You don't understand how dark the world can be, with the sun.
You don't understand how dark it is...

How shadowed my heart has become, how greyed my world has been crayoned.

I want to tell you everything, you told me I could, but I know you wouldn't believe, I won't even try to be persuasive.

One more thing, I don't like the way you toy with my feelings. I hate it.

Forever is not enough and eternity cannot suffice, if I were to be with you.

2008-12-05T03:36:00.002+08:00

Ok. My msn has no one to talk to now. Yet it is only 3.43 AM.

Shucks, is it very late already? I think I qualify to be a vampire. Ok, Edward Cullen will be hearing his name if he is hearing this.

Anyway, my last conversation of the night goes like this..

Sijin‼ has no strength to stay away from you anymore. says:
goodnight vampire (L)
Sijin‼ has no strength to stay away from you anymore. says:
LOL
edward. says:
vampire sleep in the day

Myth, as Edward Cullen would put it. Damn you people should really read Midnight Sun, it's on Stephenie Meyer's website.

Anyway, he's really Edward, not an imposter (just not Cullen), in case you were wondering. I wished I could read people's mind.

It's really overwhelming me, like the scent of a prey.
I think I'll go watch the movie again.
Now.

^^

Fear me. For all you know I could be a vampire. :[

Your grandeur I cannot resist, but resistance it has to be

2008-12-03T23:28:00.002+08:00

I watched Twilight. :D

I feel like watching it again.

I feel like people around me with really fair skin are vampires.

I feel like I could fall in love with Edward Cullen.

I feel like buying the whole book series after my first pay.

"I do not have the strength to stay away from you anymore."

Ever welcomin'

2008-12-03T00:48:00.002+08:00

My life:

Facebook (entirely Pet Society only)
Neopets

I need a better life.

All my life I've been chasing this dream only to realise I'm giving it up tonight.

放弃也是一种爱

"Old Yueniang asks Xiaoqi whether she knows the meaning of "love" (ai qing). Xiaoqi writes down the Chinese character "qing" and explains that it takes 11 strokes to write the character. The numeric '11' resembles a pair of chopsticks. One chopstick needs to be with another chopstick to be perfectly usable. Just like how a man or a woman needs to look for another person who matches him/her. Old Yueniang used to believe that love is just like a pair of chopsticks, but now, she realises that love can also be like a spoon and a fork. Two people with different living habits can also live a happy life together, as long they give in to each other."

http://littlenyonya.mediacorptv.sg/spinoffs_ep1.htm

I don't wanna be anything, I just wanna be with you.

2008-12-02T01:49:00.005+08:00

4R6 BBQ.

My throat is so not having fun.

*coughs*

How am I gonna work like that zomg. :(

But anyway, every other part of me had fun.

Is there a public(as in not people's house) kitchen I can rent or something?
:/
TELL ME!

Tell me tell me tell me the truth.
I'm waiting waiting waiting waiting no longer.
I've nothing to hide.

The pain you don't see, does not mean I don't feel.
The love you don't feel, does not mean I don't love.
The words you don't hear, does not mean I don't mean.

Guess who I didn't see today?
If only my eyes were a flash quicker!

PS: I reactivated Facebook because Pet Society is FUN.

Gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have

2008-11-30T16:03:00.006+08:00

I feel like...

1. Touring Singapore.
2. Going for night cycling.
3. Go pooling. (Inspired by Godwin's superman dp)
4. Making gingerbread man. (Anyone know how can I rent a kitchen? LOL.)
5. Ice skating.
6. Bowling.

.....

I'm numb to the consciousness of emotions.

2008-11-29T15:33:00.003+08:00

Scandal is leaving for HK this afternoon too, coming back though...

What a day.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIET!

Big girl now! :)

If I could make things last, I would.

With your photograph in my album, and tears which fade the memory in your smile.

2008-11-29T01:25:00.004+08:00

In another 2 hours I'd be leaving home and going to the airport.

Stella's leaving Singapore permanently. :( How'd I survive...?

I don't think I wanna make more friends.
Those close to you keep leaving.
And I suck at human-relation-intelligence. :/
If my shadow could talk, feel, live, he is all I would ever need.

Why, why give them to you and take them away anyway?
Why?
If this is living then the purpose of living is to die.
People shouldn't go away.
It's those people who're unkind that should be gone.
Why always taking away the ones who're true?

Thank you for the night

2008-11-28T02:58:00.002+08:00

PROM is over.

:D

It was a ravishing night, everyone.

Good night all. :D

Thank you everyone.
The people on table 11, the night, the old friends, the night, the classmates, the night, the pretty ladies and handsome men, the night, the photographers, the night, the people who brought cameras, the night, the ones who took photos with me, the night, the organisers&teachers, the night, the emcees, the night, the performances, the night, the food, the night, the staff at Trader's Hotel, the night, Stella&Alistair&Liming, the night, the sister who helped me make up, the night, the hairdresser, the night, my whole family, the night.

My whole family came to fetch me home, heart warming. :3

Chasing unrealities, yet "impossible" is only an excuse.
If you can't love the one you love, at least be a part of their happiness.

I'm sorry all I ever think about is you

2008-11-26T22:43:00.004+08:00

David Archuleta - Crush.mp3 -

I hang up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility
that you would ever feel the same way
About me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

Has it ever cross your mind
When were hangin, spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away,
goin away

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think
When you're all alone
All that we can be
Where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it really just another crush

Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin, tryin to walk away
But I know this crush aint goin away, goin away

David Archuleta - Crush

Prom is tomorrow. Nervous? Yes.

Save me, save me tomorrow night. :D

I'm gonna be uber tall... :o

I seriously think I need make up courses.

I'm happy but I won't tell you why

2008-11-25T01:05:00.002+08:00

2 more days.

Bought my heels.

But everyone says it's too high. >.>

Ok I'll try to be fine. Tsk.

My second last chance, to ever make things which will never be right, right.
If I could I would, but I couldn't, shouldn't, didn't.
But who knows time would tell.

Low on sugar? Call the glucagon!

2008-11-22T21:57:00.003+08:00

Bored.

Very bored.

Very very bored..

When I'm playing games everyone keeps lagging me on msn, but when I'm not no one's free to talk. -.-

Anyway, take a look at the image (if you like :/).
My weapon is +10 (the max) but the extra stat is -11% crit. WTH. -.-

I'm getting bored and I hope I get a job soon.
AND I wanna tour Singapore. ANYONE? LOL.

I cannot break free from your mirage

2008-11-20T20:26:00.004+08:00

I think I need to be saved.
I keep thinking I'll be seeing you around the other bend.
Crazy. But you never ever show, that's driving me crazy.

Anyway, I'm back from 2r5 chalet that was so quick it felt like a day. Didn't get to see the sunrise 'cause it was too cloudy, and the ships gave out this foul smell that chased us away.

Before bbq: sore throat
After bbq+chips+soda: burning throat, cough, flu, total weakness, sick, sexy voice, unpleasant.

Hahaha I should feel guilty. :(

Hope I'm Prim and Proper when Prom's due. Lol. PPP. LOL reminds me of Post Prelim Prep. :/
(man I need to lock you in my heart to keep you out of my head, opps I didn't say that.)

Anyway, my head hurts.
Not because I'm having a headache, nor because I'm suffering from a lack of sleep, nor because I'm suffering from computer withdrawal 'cause I'm using it now...
But because I bumped my head against a metal box (whatever you call it, it's a utility metal casing or some sort) next to the chalet's door.

My baluku is painful.
And everytime I blink I can feel it. If you don't believe me put your hand on your forehead and blink, it actually moves a bit. Stella said she'd never have known blinking used so much muscle if I didn't had that bump....

-.-

Ok I'm tired.

Not as good to be with you.

Baby Girl - B2K

Let our love exhaust in time

2008-11-18T23:50:00.001+08:00

S.o.r.e t.h.r.o.a.t s.u.c.k.s

Underlying truths

2008-11-16T23:26:00.004+08:00

If I had wings I'd fly away.
If I had money I'd spend it away.
If I had a life I'd live it away.

Sadly I've had my wings broken, my hands tied, my life taken away the moment I ever took a breath.

You lie and all this time you lie, how far can lies take me to trust that you're doing things for my own good, huh? I think I have taken the cue that YOUR LIES are for YOUR OWN GOOD ONLY.

"People lie because they know the truth will not achieve what they want."

Death is possibly painful, but it always seems the easiest way out - out of this pathetic, pitiful, pretentious world... Yet to each his own, who can really understand?

I think I'm like a rejected living thing (not even a being) hidden on an isolated island, in a deserted old broken shed, locked up in a rejected not very safe safe with no keyholes to even unlock, away from all living creatures............ does it even matter to you?

You never keep your promises.

Please don't make any promise, no matter how small or insignificant they are, if you knew you wouldn't keep them. Every word count, as much as 3cents they are worth over the the world wide web... If you are forgetful, then, don't even make promises at all. Just don't make any promise, if they were bound to be broken... Because it breaks the heart of a three year old, it breaks the heart of a four year old, it breaks the heart of a five year old, it breaks the heart of a six year old......... it breaks the heart of the sixteen year old, it breaks the heart of the seventeen year old....... it breaks the heart of the hundred year old, it breaks the heart of the hundred and one year old.

Not to worry, my heart is trained

2008-11-16T02:22:00.003+08:00

Heh, haven't been blogging much since the end of O levels because the fan in my CPU broke down. How timely! Then I thought I could use my dad's com but the hard disk corrupted! It's the end of O levels and you can just guess how I spent my celebrations...

Anyway, I wasn't exactly exuberant over the end of the O levels..

With a million and one things I never want to let go.
........

But when everything's been said and done,
We'll always be the one on the run.

Looking back, I've never felt a feeling like this before.
Perhaps when we were twelve we didn't know what parting was like.
Perhaps when we were twelve we didn't remember so much as right.
Perhaps when we were twelve we were being twelve.
Perhaps when we became sixteen(most but not all xD) we learnt things teachers could never have taught.

My heart has been trained to walk through storms, see through mists and mend symptoms of the broken hearted.

You said you never would leave me but you still did.

P.S. Can someone tell me if green dresses are okay for prom, because Juliet says I'll be looking like a tree demon. :(

Without you what will I be, I wouldn't be me.

2008-11-08T23:57:00.002+08:00

Right, and I'm not exactly sure what this feeling is.

This is beyond my comprehension.

Caught between the thin lines of black and white, no grey thanks; two is enough.

2008-11-07T10:27:00.002+08:00

The difference between right and wrong.

It's all about perception, but no one sees.

Persisting in your own ways doesn't make you more right than you thought you were, it only makes you believe you are right, and that's all that matters.

Your beauty I cannot match, my love too far fetched

2008-11-05T22:41:00.002+08:00

Chinese breaks me.

Of all the other subjects.

Chinese.

Ha.

Totally cracked.

:/

They were fallen pieces, pieces of a broken dream

2008-10-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

I gave it my all.
I gave my all away.
..just take it if that's what you really want.

O levels are passing by faster than I can believe.

Relief, anxiety, that tingle in your hands and the terrible emptiness you feel in your brain - like you've forgotten everything you tried to memorise. It's gonna be going away pretty soon. The terrible 2 weeks have passed. Yet, the next 2 weeks seem equally important.

I don't feel any weight being taken off me. Maybe I didn't had any to begin with, but I can't tell, or maybe I'm just wanting to get this over with.

And what's gonna come is fear, insecurity, and all these human feelings that I start to tire of.

Come what may.

Life's about living, right? It's not like this O level thing can break me.
Hopefully.

Fast forward

2008-10-29T20:31:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow.

8am.

Blessings and prayers and everything mystical.

Just do it.

You're there to lead,
and if you're not strong, who else is?

And if you're only there in my dreams, so be it.
I never said I liked waking up.

I suppose that's how our story ends

2008-10-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

Pray.

Hope.

Live.

I'll try.
I'll try to take life as how I'd live it.

Seven is one of my favourite numbers, but not today.

2008-10-13T01:45:00.003+08:00

Days pass.

And pass.

And pass even faster.

I don't think I'll be online much now, 'cause Stella would be over and we'd be studying together.

If anything's up, just hit the keys.

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE. :D

Score me a 7 for L1r4, boy, and I'd be the happiest girl alive.

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I've never stopped thinking of you since, and now I'm left with one last sight to redeem

2008-10-12T23:44:00.005+08:00

Well..................

I wonder why do we study for the sake of examinations.

We've lost the eagerness to obtain knowledge, and we've replaced that loss with a hunger for excellent grades.

One day I'll go to Rome,
& Make a wish at the fountain.

No idea where my dad got the photo from.

Threading on a new path, some muddy ground which has no trails.

2008-10-12T02:05:00.006+08:00

8 DAYS.

It's days like this I feel like I'm only a dim light in space, among all the bright shining stars.

I wished I could be blind to intuition but...

2008-10-11T02:52:00.004+08:00

You know, it's so hard to trust, so hard to have faith.

The first step in all isn't to fall, it's to believe you'll be caught.

But it's O levels............... Not your normal EOY that you can get over with so easily.

Credits respectively: 1 2 3 4

Hero / Heroine - Boys Like Girls

And no, I never did sneak into the new school building, :/
Which proved to be some great adventure story that everyone is talking about... but me.

I'm volunteering my heart

2008-10-11T00:33:00.002+08:00

For you to break.
How ever you may desire.

Hello 9 days.

Howie Day - Collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide